Living the Way

There is always something about how people would react when seeing someone as undescriable as me.

You see, though I am who I am, I still do raise question marks on people's forehead. I embrace the person I am and would not even bother to change for the sake of pleasing or capturing people's attention.

Some days ago, I got that one particular look. It is not annoying look but really... curious kind. I was captivated with the eyes of the beholder.

Now do not get me wrong here. It is not some sparks or whatever. As an artistic person I do take notice of people's appearance and physique. It is me just being me. And there were times that I piss people off because I stare too much.

So there I was walking pass the person. Tall and lanky. Distinctive voice where you cannot help but to take notice of this individual.

This weekend I will get to see if my request is fulfilled. And that means get to see the individual.

Does It Matter?

The way you move makes me want to

run to you and give you a kiss

The way you talk to me makes me want to

lean on you and tell you this

" I can't do this no more anymore "

Does it matter to you how I feel

Does it matter to you of how I deal

with this mounting hill

of unreciprocated love of mine

Does it matter to you that I cry

Does it matter to you that I' dying

slowly inside that you are killing 

this heart of mine...that's so unkind...

The Biggest Coward

In the midst of the heartbreaks that been looming around, I decided to look for inspirational quotes to awake my sense of belonging. Belonging to home. Belonging to a place where I know I shall truly feel as though granny was beside me, laughing at my pathetic-ness, of which I did not mind at all.

In a clinic where most patients were down with cough and flu, I sat on an orange plastic chair thinking about the fate of my joint pain and also the agony of having to take medicine. At the same time contemplating to change my mind and walk out.

I did not eventually but went snuggle in my own comfort and start googling for quotes. And I found this :

The biggest coward is a man who awakens a woman's love with no intention of loving her

I mean " Wow! ". What a quote! So, so ... true.